Last day of my first job in Londontown
And I’m appropriatly hungover for it. I’m sitting here quietly ignoring all the work I vowed to finish before I left and marveling at the enormous task left for the new girl who is replacing me. Not only is she joining a division that has had 4 people start and leave in the last 2 months, she’s not even going to be trained by anyone who has actually worked on this floor. This is the norm for how this company works and they wonder why the division is falling apart.
It hasn’t really hit me that I’m unemployed. I know there are important issues here like, how will I pay rent? How will I buy food? How I will I spend my weekends in other countries? What if my shoes break and I need new ones? Very important, yet all I seem to be doing is trying hard to conceal my glee at being able to sleep in on Monday morning.
The whole sleeping part of my life isn’t going so well at the moment either, to be honest. I’ll spend the day head-on-my-desk tired, then 10pm hits and zing! I am wide awake. I am wide awake until about 2am, then I’ll wake up again at around 4.30am and stress out about things that haven’t happened or have happened in the past. I’m considering sleeping pills for just some freaking peace of mind, but I really don’t need anymore help waking up groggy, unwilling to get out of bed and generally pissed at daylight.
We went to Amsterdam last weekend, I’ll type that up at some stage. Turns out, I have plenty of time these days.
Lilley | Not Really Working | 01 30th, 2009 |
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Hey, nothing wrong with being excited about sleeping in on Monday. Take what good you can from the situation. Anyway, were you really planning to live in London forever? I just imaging you have seen much more difficult situations than this, so really, it’s not the end of the world. In the absolute worst case, you’d move back to NZ after having enjoyed London a while and then see what adventure happens next. Might as well enjoy your time there. Sounds like you could use the chance to sleep anyway!
insomnia is a bitch. you should try not trying so hard. when it’s time to go to bed, pretend you have to read an entire magazine or listen to an entire online lecture (very boring) before you are allowed to sleep. it might make you sleepy. also stay away from tea and coffee after 5, drink lots of water, and excersize during the day. i suffer from it as well. but drinking half a cup of warm milk before bed also helps. Hope this helps! i just know how much it sucks!!