Kiwi Shot

Im so fucking bored. Ive been thinking about this for weeks now and i think i should quit my job and do something different. Im well aware of the fact i have it sweet here and i like the industry but it was actually phyiscal force that got me out of bed this morning (my leg cramped up something cronic and i leaped out of bed to stop the pain). Every morning i wake up and think of some lame excuse not to go to work, then its only the guilt id get from dad that makes me go. I get to work and space out reading the news, myspace and email to make the day go faster. I always know what time it is how long ive got till i get to go home. I dont think i was meant to work in one place for longer than a year. Ive got pretty much no attention span, im bored bored bored this job is going nowhere, im only here so dad doesn’t get upset and i know somewhere in the back of my mind i need to have cash because life requires it but even thats not enough of a perk to make me want to come here. I dont understand people that live to work. People that do stuff for their work in the weekend. People that come early and work late. You call me fucked? Thats fucked. Im not staying here a minute longer than i have to.

I think shit then i can’t write it. I used to write i used be proud of what i wrote but im not the same i used to be. People use song lyrics to convey emotions of the time, i dont even know the words to this song but i like the screaming because it mixes anger and sadness perfect. Sometime things will get better but i look forward to when it doesn’t.

oh all emo on it are we mmm.